Accountability

I recommend that you find someone -- a close, trusted friend or a pastor/minister/spiritual leader. -- to whom you can be completely open and accountable about your struggles. This should not be your spouse or significant other. This accountability person person should never condemn or shame you, but should help you through the struggles you face. This person -- or "these people" if you can find more than one -- needs to be available to talk at any time of night or day, so they can help you through the temptation.  Your sponsor/accountability partner should be someone:

• of the same gender as you

• who has some long-term sobriety

• who also has something you want (recovery, sanity, etc.)

• who is not a potential trigger for you

If you can't find a sponsor, you might consider SLAA's Long Distance Sponsorship Program.  They need more sponsors, but this is the only place I know of where you can find an online or long-distance sponsor.